Blue Surge, with Prokoviev
Not far from the coast of Aruba, no
deeper than fifteen meters, you roll
weightless in the surge and figure out
a few things you’ll never remember but
will always feel. For awhile, you have a friend
you can trust here – a loggerhead turtle
the size of a manhole cover who
allows you to accompany her nowhere
in particular. She tilts, you tilt, she glides,
you glide, until she edges past the outcropping
and drops into opaque blue. There’s a feeling
of falling when you watch a friend fall,
but when you check your gauges you’re really
not far from where the friend left you, at the edge
of the soft corals bending and swaying,
bending and swaying, as white water wrinkles
the surface your bubbles climb toward.
The water column is empty. You breathe
down toward the tops of things – blennies poking
like thoughts from holes in the brain coral,
anemones limp as gloves half off hands.
In your mind’s ear, Prokoviev’s first
piano concerto, its pushing and pulling,
pushing and pulling, at the body,
the trunk, the heart. Nearby, on a head
of bleached coral, the feathers of a crinoid
wave in the current. Everything benign
is predatory, everything passive
lies in ambush. It’s a world you understand.
Sunrise Dive
The news this morning: oil spills on the reef,
where a rainbow parrot sleeps on a ledge inside a sac of its own mucus,
its eyes wide open.
Under my torch the mucus glistens
like beads on a veil. The sac undulates
in soft currents – the parrotfish wobbles,
imperturbable.
The bad news comes most mornings. You can read it
in the garbage wedged into patches
of finger coral a dozen yards out,
where the reef shelf drops straight down
a thousand feet.
At the edge
of the blue-gray visible, a bull shark
noses the wall. She’s there most mornings, too,
when
things on the reef pretend not to be things –
it’s an anxious time, a drama on the edge of great violence
most of us will survive.
My torch beam inches gently along the corals.
Antennae recede, spaghetti worms
retract, feather dusters
vanish,
and cleaner shrimp tuck into the fingers of anemones
like women pulling in shutters.
A spotted moray nuzzles the green cup coral.
Schools of wrasse and jacks emerge –
they parade in the sunlight just reaching edge.
Once I worked for Big Oil. What have I done?
Tongue of the Ocean
Before dawn I boil water in a dented pan set over cans of sterno.
The coffee is poison—I drink two cups with sugar while preparing my gear:
******torch, tanks, sling.
I spit in my mask and back-roll off port into dark water.
Shadows of the nocturnals rush dark gray over the rubble, my heart thumping
*******in the wetsuit.
Marauding jacks strike at my bubbles, and barracuda flash silver as new dimes in the
*******chaos before my mask.
Something is out there.
What I kill I gut and clean and sizzle in a pan with onions.
My hands stink of the sea, a funky saltwater conch stink that forms my pillow at
*******night.
Nights light up like a thousand cruise ships sliding over each other on pages of blue-black
*******ink.
I read the sky the way we were taught not to read books—with superstition and
*******wonder and fractured syntax, without logic, causality, or motivation.
I put “e” before “I” and I tear the night’s footnotes into confetti.
I fall asleep dreaming of what I might kill for breakfast, hungry and satisfied
*******and afraid.
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Tim Tomlinson is a co-founder of New York Writers Workshop, and co-author of its popular text, The Portable MFA in Creative Writing. He is the fiction editor of the webzine Ducts. In 2011 new fiction and poetry appear or are forthcoming online in International Literary Quarterly, Mandala Journal, Prick of the Spindle, riverbabble, Spindle (Philippines), and Used Furniture Review, and in print in Pank #5, and the anthologies Long Island Noir (Akashic Books), and Flashlight Memories.